Bay
CrossingsJournal
Beach
Robin
By Bill Coolidge
We
shot ’em in the Spring. Gave them to the old ones, you know, the
ones that couldn’t go out no more and take care for themselves.”
The suspenders of his bib overralls are loose fitting, resting on
his chest. Twinges of white hair straggle below his bill cap.
“Beach
Robin,” he holds up a wooden bird. “Carved it out of heartwood,
someone over on the island gave it to me. Look here, you can see the
grain. I like the curves, didn’t want to varnish it. Can you see
the difference between it and the red cedar?” He points to bright,
shiny orangish-red wooden duck.
“Brought
me to my knees, oh boy, thought I wouldn’t make it. Doctor told me
it was just a small lump on my lungs, but that chemo stuff,
poisonous, thought I was going to die.” His blue eyes stray off to
the 50-foot white boat on blocks sitting in his front yard. “Can’t
finish the cabin, ’cept my son came down from Virginia to help me,
took a whole week from his vacation. Hell, I can barely climb that
ladder. My hands shake, I don’t want to be fussing with that jig
saw.”
I’ve been riding
by this boat and the white double-wide house for nearly a year. Out
front next to the mailbox is a cupboard with glass windows filled
with elegant carved shorebirds. Finally, I rode my bike into the
yard and yelled, “Captain, you up there?”
“Doc
said he got it all. That was last April. Now lookeehere, it’s
September 1st and my hands and feet are still numbing. Don’t know
what to make of it.” He turns again and eyeballs the boat.
“You
know that was going to be a shrimp boat, but no more. Just last week
I bought hundred pounds of shrimp at a $1.29 a pound. Now I ask you,
just how can a man make a living shrimping? Can’t. Tell you that
right now. Imports to blame. No one ’round here will be wanting to
go shrimping after this season. I’ll make her into an off-shore
fishing boat. Everybody with money is buying one of these.
“These
birds though. Got boxes of them in my house. I’m thinking I’ll
enter them in that contest over on Harkers in the fall.” He pulls
up the straps on his bib overalls, straightens his bill cap. Turns
his head and gazes at his boat.
“Worked
on the water all my life, grew up over there on Cedar Island. Worked
the tugs in Virginia, like my son does now, that was good money. No
jobs around here like that.”
He
doesn’t say, “When I go back to Virginia.” Maybe he knows now
there is no going back. He scuffles a little, stumbles as we walk
over to the boat, live oak leaves already spilling onto the sandy
ground.
“Don’t hardly
know anybody making a living working on the water. Whenever I get
this boat off of my front lawn, I think I will build me a little
shed, put her right where that boat is and start acarving. Make
money thataway.” The white boat seems mammoth to me. Without his
son helping, I wonder just how he is going to finish his project.
“Oh,
sorry, my name is Cooper Mason.” His large hand, long arms unfurl
and my hand is held comfortably in his. “Moved over here to be
near my grandchildren. But I remember going over to Shackleford in
the fall and shooting loons. It was illegal then. And these here,
Beach Robins we call them. Shot them, too. They were everywhere.
Even now, I hear in the Carribean they are starving to death. Too
many of them.”
“Back
then, out on Cedar Island, each depended on the other. No government
and rules, no foreign imports, no pollution. Crabs and oysters
aplenty.”
“Grandpa,
dinner’s ready.” A girl with a blue blouse and light brown hair
yells out from the doorstep.
Cooper doesn’t move, as if he didn’t hear her. “Now this boat.
I’ll put a couple coats of epoxy on her. She’ll be good in rough
weather. I know that.” Cooper Mason holds onto my Beach Robin,
made of heartwood pine. His eyes have that faraway gaze, out past
Harker’s Island, to Cape Lookout, around the protected point into
the ocean heading for Shackleford Banks. Birds and boats, the given
life of a man brushed close by death’s whisper, unwilling to go
inside, until these rough calloused dented fingers can let go of the
curved gnarls, the heartwood of his destiny.