Bay
CrossingsJournal
Haunting the Lake
By Bill Coolidge
About four in the afternoon on a Saturday. It’s
an in-between time, drinking beer up and down the beach. Three
groups separated from each other: parents, sons and daughters of age
and their teenage siblings. That’s me, a younger teenager with
five other boys. Trying to find a way to get served a beer from a
neighbor or better yet have an older brother or sister sneak one.
Not very successful, usually but we liked the game of it. Brothers
and sisters are up for the weekend, off from work or summer school.
Pabst Blue Ribbon, Blatz, Miller, Carling and Bud. Bottles being
passed around. Before aluminum cans.
There are two groups in front of the Crawford cottage. The teenagers
sitting on aluminum chairs with green ribbing watching the siblings
cavort along the dock. Hoisting longnecked bottles, teasing and
laughing. Diving occasionally into the lake to cool off. My best
friend Dewey lives here. His parents are inside with the Wengers
having a drink around the knotty pine table in the kitchen. Me and
Dewey, Bob, Tim, and Jim are caught in-between. Fifty yards from the
dock and within viewing of the parents. Like an old dog on a hot
summer day, slumbering with one eye open, we’re waiting for some
action.
“Did you see that?” A yell went up from the end of the dock. Bob
Basso’s brother was out there with Ned and Pam. Sitting on the
dock, legs dangling over, only touching water when a motorboat went
by and left a big wake.
“Over there!” We run to the shoreline, those on the dock are
standing and peering out toward into the lake. Twelve pair of eyes
look out into the water, at the raft line. About 100 feet out from
shore.
“A body!” Ray, Bob’s older brother, is standing up now, blue
plaid bermuda shorts, white t-shirt, tan offsetting the black curly
hair like dark angel spaghetti twisting and turning around his chest
and armpits. His right arm straight out like a plumbline. I
frantically look around, see nothing. I elbow Dewey. “See
anything?”
“Naw. It’s just Ray, he probably drank too much.”
“Don’t you see it? There it is!”
I watch the direction of Ray’s pointing but I don’t even see a
ripple from the submerging of an arm or leg or head.
“Well’s let’s go out and find it!” Ned, Dewey’s brother is
already pushing out a rowboat. Ned has just been accepted into the
Coast Guard and is now in training. He arrived Friday night in his
show whites. Hair close cropped. He looked proud. Walked tall.
“This is the best thing for Ned. He wasn’t made to be in
college. But his father, he is so disappointed. Not having a college
son. I’m so proud of him.” Last night when I was in Dewey’s
kitchen getting a Hires root beer, I heard Ruth, Dewey’s mother
say this to Fleet Wenger, who lives in between Dewey’s cottage and
ours. Mrs. Crawford was tearing up. “He’s such a good looking
boy.” Mrs. Wenger’s contribution. Both nod their heads in
approval, as if taken by an inspirational painting in a museum.
Ned and Rex, my stepbrother, are heading out to the dropoff in the
rowboat, right near the raft and in the direction of Ray’s
pointing. Ned is on the oars. Rex is sitting on the bow seat and
then quickly stands up and dives in, almost capsizing the small
aluminum craft.
“What the hell do you think you are doing?” Sputters Ned to Rex
but Rex hasn’t broken the surface yet, didn’t hear him.
Rex acts like a turtle, going down and coming up in different
places.
“Don’t see anything.” Ned relays this message to crowd
standing along the beach.
“Are you sure you saw something Ray?” Ned’s sister Sue asks.
“What, you don’t trust me? God damn it, I saw a body!” Ray
leaves us and runs next door to his house. Meanwhile a couple of
other guys swim out to join Rex and search around. I’d like to do
that, but I’m in the younger crowd. Seen and not heard.
Some of the crowd walks over to Dewey’s. Sits in the chairs. Sue
goes in and brings out some Millers. Ray comes running over from his
house:
“I’ve called the Sherriff’s department. They’re coming with
some scuba divers. They believed me.”
Each summer has a signature event. An event that is remembered and
then is used to identify it: “the summer Glen Jurgenson’s
Lightning (a sailboat) burned.” Or “the summer those history
buffs came with scuba gear and found that old log sled used in
winter on the ice, in front of Larry’s Kollmorgen’s house.” Or
“that summer Gene (my younger stepbrother) used that pipe to shoot
cherry bombs at the sailboats.”
This was to become: “the summer Ray Basso thought he saw the body.”
They came. Right about dusk. Three scuba divers. Three extra tanks.
Dark suited, capped, flippers. My dog Rip, an English Setter, had a
fit. He was alternately scared and then protective. He’d bark
loudly, then retreat to our house and then come running out barking
and skid to a stop, sniff and eyeball the divers, and then retreat,
about ten feet and bark, retreat another ten feet and then bark. All
the way back to our cottage and then repeat the performance.
They gave up about eight o’clock. Pretty much dark out. I stayed
right there on the beach with them, skipping dinner. Most of Ray’s
crowd, had dwindled down to two or three. None of the parents seemed
very concerned, as if they had special and secret information about
the source.
“Be back tomorrow.” With that, the Sheriff and his crew packed
up the two trucks and left.
“I told you so.” Ruth is shaking her head, stirring something on
the stove. I don’t know what she means. No one questions her. I’m
eating a late dinner with Dewey. I’m pretty excited, but it’s
quiet in the kitchen. The adults all have gone home and the older
brothers and sisters have headed across the lake for a party.
They return in the early morning. Three scuba divers. Rip is locked
in the house. I wade out past my waist to watch them. Bubbles
signifying their underwater presence. Within the hour, they are
standing on shore, taking off flippers and tanks. Mrs. Wenger, who
wears a housecoat and hair in curlers until noon of each day, has
brought out coffee and donuts. They drink and eat silently. Not
saying anything about this futile search. Ray Basso is not on the
beach. He’s gone to Mass. No more than three or four of us there,
Dewey and me. Mrs. Wenger and my dad. He is always up early, unlike
most of the other parents.
They walk away, like alien visitors. I don’t even know their
names. They keep on their scuba gear until they reach the trucks. As
if some special military squad has landed on a rural northern
Michigan lake.
“Guess it was no big deal after all.” The Sheriff says to no one
in particular. One of the trucks has duals, it rumbles when started.
They turn the trucks around and accelerate out the dirt road, dust
laying lazily in the air, I can hear the driver shift through the
gears and then a bellowing as he floors it on U.S. 27, about a mile
away. Rip is let out, he catches their scent on the gravel road,
lets out three high pitched barks, then wags his tail and looks at
me sheepishly. Both of us knowing, that whatever danger was present
has long disappeared.
Each succeeding Memorial Day weekend, the docks are put out. The
boat lifts are hauled down from the sideyards and then shoved and
pulled into the water. Like the return of the orange breasted
robins. Once a year on a Saturday morning, the beach is filled in.
Its desolation vanishes as human activity accelerates. Each cottage
contributes manpower to the effort until everyone’s lifelines to
the water are in place. And then it is free time.
I swim out to the dropoff, with goggles, snorkel and fins on and
then I swim down, along the dropoff, Looking around, casually. Not
expecting to see too much. Perch and bass are out along this
invisible ridge of what I can see and what can not be seen. I’ve
heard bodies stay enfleshed for a long time in cold water. I don’t
tell anyone that I am still searching, just in case. Just in case a
body is down there, maybe slowly being rolled up from the dropoff as
the result of a big storm.
Ray Basso did not come up to the lake much the next summer. When he
did, he kept to himself. Didn’t hang out with the gang. No one
seemed to miss him. He was “a little off.” That’s what the
word was up and down the beach. I ask Bob: “What’s Ray doing
this summer?”
“He’s found work in a lumberyard. Works alot of Saturdays. Too
tired to make the drive up here.”
Haunted now by the invisible body. No one talks about it, unless it’s
to point to that particular summer. “The summer Ray saw the body.”
No one believes he did. Somehow Ray knew he made a life defining
mistake. Haunted by the dead that never was. After college, I heard
he found a job in Las Vegas and changed his name. It wasn’t until
I went away to college, years later, that I stopped that Memorial
Day ritual of looking for the dead body, at that invisible line
between what is seen and what will never come up for viewing.